WE WERE ONLY FIFTEEN

Me and me

*Goldroom's fifteen playing in the background*

*Drum roll*

I'M FINALLY SEVENTEEN GUYS!

How awesome is that!!

It's not that awesome I get it, I'm being too dramatic, whatevs.

In case you're wondering, my birthday is on October 14th which is 5 days ago. But I'm still very excited. Because I'm about to enter a new crazy chapter to my life.

First I'm going to talk about the tittle 'WE WERE ONLY FIFTEEN'. It's kind of a throwback to my life of being just fifteen. When I have no responsibility and I still rely on my parents for everything.

I first entered high school when I was fifteen too. I was still quirky and tried to make friends with everyone in the class (Some attempts worked and gave me my closest friends till now). I didn't care about getting a college or thinking about my dream. Because I was only fifteen.

All of the sudden I'm seventeen, I realize that two year range means a lot and changes many things in my life. I'm officially an adult (at least in Indonesia) which means I'm being trusted to make my own decisions in life. This is huge for me. Especially when I think about being a grown up and leaving my mom and dad.

Okay, I'm exaggerating. I'm not gonna leave my mom and dad in a few months. But in some time, I will have to build a life on my own and not relying on them as much as I do now. That life began when I became seventeen and facing the outside world.

The scary thing is leaving high school and applying for college. As much as I hate school, high school is kind of my shelter and my safety zone. I met the greatest friends in high school and I just don't know if I can fit in well later in the university. It's like going into a new environment where everyone is a stranger. And if you don't feel like you belong, you're basically stuck there for the next 4 or 5 years.

The hardest part is knowing that you have a weight on your shoulder as an adult. So you can't mess around again. You're going to miss out chances and opportunities if you take everything as a joke. It's a realization for me every day. That being seventeen means It's time to secure your future. More so, It's time to decide where you wanna go with your life. Either you're going to chase your dream and future job, or you're just going to be a loser in life.

So that's what being seventeen is like to me. How 'bout you?